No wise words can stop the bleeding.

120128

2012-01-28T20:44:00.001+08:00

Hi guys.
It's been a really long time right? Hahah i'm sorry. I was overseas and all then my laptop for confiscated. Updating through my iPod is such a hassle but here I am. I don't have much to say. I don't really have much happening in my life. So I guess I'll just do 30 things about me I found on tumblr. (hoping it will actually interest y'all)
1. Full name.
Megan Mary Cheong Kah Mun
2. Birthday
8th May 1996
3. Star sign and horoscope.
Rat and Taurus :)
4. Family members
Mother, Father, stepmother, older brother and younger brother :)
5. Favorite colour.
I don't have one. But I like Red, Purple, Grey, Yellow and Blue. Green too, sometimes. Black and white too hahahahah.
6. Favorite food.
Ohgawd. Lasagne!!!
7. Favorite drink.
Water. Heheh.
8. Favorite part of your body.
It'll have to be either my collarbones, stomach, or back dimples.
9. Favorite body part of opposite sex.
DICK. Loljk, eyes or hair. Guys who have eye smile are cute.
10. Relationship status.
Single. :(
11. Hobbies.
Floorball? Is that counted? I also like to dance around my room. And puzzles omg. Sudoku and all.
12. Height.
163cm!!! Or was it 162? Aiya can't remember.
13. Weight.
HAHAHA. 52kg.
14. Favorite number.
Many. 3, 6, 7, 9,11, 21, 22.
15. Hair colour.
Dark brown. In light it's a redish brown cause of my dye. Hahah.
16. Eye colour.
Dark brown.
17. Feet size.
35. HAHAHA. Sometimes 34/6. It varies according to the brand.
18. Ideal guy.
Hardworking, supportive, funny, intelligent when he speaks like he doesn't say stupid things.
19. Number of children you plan to have.
Ehhhh, 2? Or 3? Idk see how painful it is. May even adopt? ^_^
20. Age you plan to get married.
Depends on my career but somewhere from late 20s to 33. Don't ask why 33. Hahahah.
21. Number of relationships you've been in.
I only count 1 a proper relationship.
22. Favorite piece of clothing.
My Zara jeans.
23. Favorite subject.
Either literature, bio, or history.
24. Favorite song.
For You I Will by Teddy Geiger.
25. Favorite toy.
My yellow care bear.
26. Things you can't leave the house without.
Phone, wallet, iPod, necklace.
27. How funny you think you are. (1-10)
Eh, 7?
28. How good looking you think you are. (1-10)
5-6 around there la.
29. How nice you think your body is. (1-10)
I'd say 6.
30. How interesting you think you are.(1-10)
HAHAHA. 5. Nobody will read this I swear.
Omg guys it's Kim Dongjun. Kbye.

Monster

2012-01-20T20:52:00.001+08:00

Hi guys!!!
My blog views have decreased by more than half these past couple days... Hahahah. Oh well. I'm actually blogging from my iPod now :) I'm at my dad's! Reason being, tomorrow at like 8am we're gonna be leaving for Malaysia! Oh and I also got beats from dad for Christmas! Belated but yeah :P
Today was pretty awesome!! We had the CNY celebrations at school. We had to take care of old folks an they were adorable. There was one bit when Shi en and I cried.. But I stopped and she just didn't. Then Sabrina cried!! Haiyoh.. But anyway, the best part was when we were in the hall. Lavina, seow and I sat together among some juniors and we were doing the really weird things we usually do.. But it was fun nonetheless! :)
After school I went for lunch with Michael and seow. That was really fun too. Heheh. I love them. Except Michael. He's a brat. Nawww, I kid, he's still my brother. Unfortunately. Haha kk kidding.
Kay so I hope everyone has a good long weekend ahead! And if you're travelling, be safe! I'll try to update if I get wifi or anything ^_^
Annyeong!!

Spirit.

2012-01-16T20:54:00.001+08:00

Eh sup guyssssss.
Today was alright. Actually it kinda sucked la. But i'm pretty over it already. We lost against St. Margs. 2-1. It was unfortunate really. I played badly and I wasn't pleased with myself at all. But thanks to our coach's speech, i think i'll take this as a learning experience and work much harder. My left thigh hurts really bad though. I don't know what happened. Just after the 1st period of our game, it started hurting. But I still tried my best to run and all during the game. Yeah.
Omg do you know how badly I want a nice nose. Like a higher nose bridge. I want it seriously badly. Haha maybe when i'm older i'll get a nose job. I don't think i'll dare to go under the knife though. But if my sinus problems get really bad, i'll have to go for an operation. eeeeggghhh. ouch.
i'm actually really really tired now. I'm gonna watch a couple videos, do my chinese homework then head to bed!
Night guys! <3

Lovey Dovey.

2012-01-16T01:07:00.001+08:00

my Kim Sunggyu impersination. lol. we look alike right. hahaha jkz.

Hi guys!

It's 1am, and i'm up doing research for English homework. Sucks balls eh? But I brought it onto myself so might as well pay the consequences! I actually should be fast asleep by now, getting plenty of rest for tomorrow because it's gonna be the first match for nationals!

Omg right? hahah, yes i'm freaked out. Like, seriously freaked out. I haven't been playing well and on top of that, Nurul is injured. :( Hope she's okay by tomorrow and can play! She's a valuable member of our team!

Ugh, okay, so i told myself that i'll only take like 5mins to blog so i can complete my English work before 2.

Hehe, i'm doing research on Oprah! She's so cool. I remember coming home from school everyday and watching her show with my maid. I miss my maid. k anyway, i didn't realise how much she went through as a teenager. She even willingly admitted about her really mad past. And that makes her really cool! She isn't afraid or ashamed of herself and instead, continues on to pursue and in the end, becomes such an influential person. Kay, i'm pretty sure none of ya'll read this to hear about how awesome i think Oprah Winfrey is. But she just is okay!

Tomorrow is gonna be a long day! I only have to attend like half of school, but, I have a Bio test first period, then Chinese CA exam the next and English period after that. English sucks. Also because i don't intend to hand in all my homework. I'm only doing like half of it. Heh, but i'll hand all of it in eventually! :P

Kay I need to get going now to continue on my work!!!

BYE EVERYONE! Sorry that my updates aren't at all regular and shizz. <3

120111

2012-01-11T22:23:00.001+08:00

Hey guys!
It's been awhile since I've updated. Haha i'm sorry. But the reason is cause my laptop charger spoilt. Again. Yes. I don't know how. It wasn't very good to begin with but yeah. Anyway, so did mark's.. And my mum's overseas so I'm charger-less. So now I'm using my iPod to update :)
School has been extremely tiring these few days. I have remedial practically everyday except Wednesdays i think. I've also got training 3 times a week. Tuesday, Thursday and Fridays. But the annoying part is having pe on Wednesdays. So I don't have a break.. :(
Since today I didn't have any remedial, I came home and took a nap. Haha. First time taking afternoon nap in awhile and I have feeling it'll be a really long time till I'll get the chance to do it again.
I need to start on my homework and studying in awhile. I know it's late but because of my nap, I'm wide awake :D
How's everyone? Is school stressful?hang in there guys! Especially those who are taking their N's or O's. We're all in this together ;) don't stress out too much and take a break or enjoy yourself once in awhile okay? But that's only if you've been working ;)
Sigh, I miss my mummy :( she's supposed to be coming back tonight but I don't know how late that will be! Urgh.
Okay I think this is extremely long, heheh, I've got to get started on my work now. Bye bye :D <3

피곤

2012-01-05T21:06:00.001+08:00

Guys, I'm so tired. It's only the 3rd day of school.
I hate school. I hate it. My legs hurt, my head and heart are exhausted. I'm so stressed. Nationals are coming up but there's conflict in my team. Schoolwork is just so frustrating. It's mentally tiring me out. I'm so emotionally drained. I shall not say why. But I just am.
I'm so hungry but I can't eat. I'm on a diet. I'm so tired but I can't sleep. I've got work to do. I wish I had someone to support me now.
I don't even know why I'm like this. It's only been 3 days. School is so overwhelming. People are so frustrating. I'm seriously gonna explode or break down any second.. Sigh...
Bye everyone. Hope things are better for you

It's.

2012-01-04T23:42:00.001+08:00

Hey guyyyzzzzz.

Second day of school! It's was pretty cool. I kinda like my new teachers and i have confidence that I'll be able to cope this year. I guess a good motto to live by is "Don't give up, don't be conceited and work hard." I'll try to live by that. It's good right? hahaha.

Anyway, today Gen passed me my Christmas present! I don't have one for her yet though, haven't found the time to go get it. Anyway, it's a necklace. Significance of it? Find out yourself lol. Hahaha. Oh and also from those pictures can you tell how black my hair is? Hehe, i'm getting used to it so it's all good. :) Though laoshi said it wasn't black enough, which i found outrageous. Haiyoh, whatever la.

And also, today's the official release of Teen Top's album. And at 3pm tomorrow, they'll release their MV. Can't wait ^_^ k i know a lot of you all don't like this kpop stuff all ah. Hhaha. I shall shut up about it now.

oh please ignore my face in the second picture. I got lazy to take another one. Hahaha. Oh now that i'm looking at them, both quite unglam ah. Hahaha, shit, forget it... Anyway, I actually did my homework today. How awesome. haha there wasn't much that's why. :P But still counts! Oh yeah and now i'm gonna arrange the stuff in my room a bit. And put the Teen Top Calendar and diary to use. hehe.

bye guys <3 work hard okay? You'll get used to school soon enough ^_^

Talk is cheap.

2012-01-03T21:00:00.001+08:00

Hi guysss.

I know it's been awhile since i've updated. Sorry my updates are so irregular. not that anyone cares. Hahaha. So today was the first day of school! It was boring but pretty slack. It's nice being in school again, in a way. But at the same time I hate it. It's so crowded, and ugh. Hahaha.

Oh yes, my hair has been 3 different colours over a span of 3 days. First, it was my dyed hair, which was like a chestnut brown. Then because school was starting, last night, i dyed it a darker brown which came out lighter than expected. So i got caught today, and I've just dyed it jet black. Horrible... But whatever. I can't be bothered already.

I've been kinda upset lately too.. But i guess i'm just being a typical pms-y moody teenager. Heheh. I just wish i could turn back time. Then again who doesn't want to right? Hahaha. This is too... emotional for me. I don't like it. Bleh. Dealing with feelings is so annoying!!! It's so much easier to brush them aside.

I don't even know what I am saying. Anyway, all of ya'll who are starting school, good luck! Especially those taking O's or N's. :) We can do ittttt. Hwaiting~~!

2011

2011-12-31T23:42:00.001+08:00

Hey guys!
it's the last night of 2011. and before it's too late, i really wanna thank everyone who's done so much for me.
Firstly, my mother. I know she doesn't read my blog but i guess why not right. So mum, i know we've fought a lot and we don't see eye to eye often on most topics. But this year, especially towards the end of it, I've really grown to appreciate you so much more. You're really one of my bestfriends. Though there are some things i can't do in front/with you, I know you're there for me. And I'm truly grateful for that. Thanks for single handedly raising mark, michael and I and really just doing your best everyday for us. I promise to do my best for you, from tomorrow onwards. I love you, mum. <3
Secondly, Anna. Anna, you've been a really good friend to me. Though we've had our fair share of ups and downs, especially last year, and the year before, i think we did a good job and pulled through our stupidity and immaturity. hehe. You're one of those friends who i can count on. Whether it's to have fun or to study with. And that's one of the best things about you. Without you, i don't know what I'm gonna do with my life, like seriously. I have no social life. You and Ashley are one of the few exciting things in my life. HAHA. It's awesome how we're really close and I feel comfortable around you, no matter what. You've been really understanding and extremely kind. I could go on, but it would be too long. Heheh, thanks for everything <3 Saranghae!
Next, Ashley. I didn't think we'd get so close! We were never really very close to begin with. haha but I don't regret it at all. lol, i still remember when you asked me "do you consider me your bestfriend?" Hahaha. It was a really really long time back, but, i still consider you one of my bestfriends, ashley. You're really fun to be around and seriously funny. hahaha. Despite that, i like the times when we had our h2h talks too! Thanks for everything you've done to help me get through this year. Listening to my nonsense problems, offering advice, or just joking around. You're awesome la. You don't deserve to be treated the way you were treated by those guys. dsfkenjrfjn. h8 them! So just forget them okay? :) love you long time bb! <3
Leroy. Hi leroy, we've known each other for quite some time! hahah i still find how we met extremely lame but, i don't regret it! :) You've helped me through my toughest times and my worst heartbreaks. You know how to make my day, even though you know how to spoil it too. Hahah! But, honestly, when you say nice things to me, I never forget them. I haven't forgotten them, actually. So, thanks. Even though we're really different, i'm glad we get along well. :) We have our mood swings and nonsense, but i know we're going to be good in the end! So remember that okay? Love you like you love Miley :D
Holly! Holly!!!! i haven't seen/talked to you in the longest time! But you're still a really special friend to me! We need a sleepover soon and a catch up session! Hahah. Thanks for everything you've done! Thanks for always listening to my longass nonsensical stories and giving me advice through it all. You were always straightforward and honest when you gave opinions and I appreciate that, really. :)You know that i'm always here for you too! So if anything ever happens, don't hesitate to call me! oh and, you and your family have always made me feel at home whenever I go over! Tell your mum and dad i say happy new year okay?!!! I really miss you! LOVE YOU <3
Erssy! Omg, where do i begin? You've been such a great friend! I'm really thankful for everything you've done for me. Even the simplest compliments you give me, really make me feel so much better. You're really awesome to hang out with. I'm sorry that we haven't met up in awhile despite how much i say we would. I miss you truckloads and you've always been there for me. :) Thanks for tolerating my nonsense. even the times when i hurt you and all. You're really a true friend to me. I can't believe i've known you since we were like p5! It's been 5 years babe! And i'm sure more years to come :) i'll never forget all our times in Kew! Love you so high to the sky~~~ <3
Ili! thanks ili for everything this year! I just saw you on tv! haha you qtpie. You've really brought so much laughter to my life you know? You're an awesome friend. You know what to say to make me feel better and you're a really good listener. An awesome friend indeed. Always remember i'm here for you okay? When you're angry/upset/lonely, just give me a call or text me. You've been a super awesome friend and super funny! heheh, love our lame jokes and all! Can't forget them :) Love you like Austin ;)

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL MY LOVED ONES <3

Going Crazy.

2011-12-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

Hi!!

Yay, i'm updating. Hahah. Actually I'm only doing this cause i have absolutely nothing to do while waiting for Teen Top's teaser to come out. It's gonna be released at 12am(KST) which means 11pm here. Hehe, i can't wait. Don't you think their album jacket photo is just super sexy? They've totally become MEN! ;)

Anyway, enough of my fangirling, though there will be more later. But I'll try to maintain my tweets la. Hahah. So ya, today didn't do much at all. Starting on a diet to lose weight. Replacing rice with veggies. Not all, of course. Just like eating less rice and having more veggy to compensate. And also, i'll be exercising from now on. And not forgetting my holiday homework. :(

There's seriously tons to do, but i shall not worry about it till tomorrow. Don't want to stress out this late at night or i'll never sleep. I generally don't sleep well, if i add stress to that, I can forget about sleeping before 3 or 4 even. Hahah.

ok guys they just released the drama teaser i can't blog anymore i'm sorry. HAHAHA

BYE <3

시간을 되돌려 널 모르던 때로 돌아가고 싶어.

2011-12-28T01:26:00.000+08:00

Hi guys.
It's been awhile since i've updated. I usually update really regularly, but i guess nowadays I haven't had the time or the mood to. But i am back! hahaha. Not that anyone cares. ok. hahah.
Anyway, these few days have been alright. Today kinda sucked but I don't wanna talk about it. Dwelling on it just upsets me more and more.
Oh, but I must say, I'm really so thankful for my mother. I don't know what I'll do without her. I never really believed that mothers could be bestfriends, but after today, I guess I kinda see it. I really do love and treasure her so much. I took a nap today, cause I was so upset and didn't wanna think about things. Then my mother woke me up and I managed to tell her everything. She crawled into bed with me and hugged and talked to me till i felt better. These days, we've really been getting along well. I hope things don't change. Unless it's for the better. heheh.
Also today, I was watching one of those kpop shows i recorded. Though they don't know who I am, and they don't even know of my existence, the simplest things an idol/celebrity says can honestly make a huge difference in a person's life. Honestly, these people are inspiring people. They're hard working, committed, and extremely strong people. In mind, heart, and body. Maybe one day, I can be like that, one way or another.
I mean, who hasn't dreamt of being an inspiration right? :)
Hahah okay, this is just too long. Sorry for being so boring especially after a long time. Night everyone.
<3

Someone Like You.

2011-12-23T02:05:00.001+08:00

Hi guysss!
So if ya'll follow my twitter, ya'll should know about my current obsession with rilakkuma cause it's just the most adorable thing on earth right now, besides pokemon and me. Ok anyway, i stumbled over this picture of Kevin holding a rilakkuma toy. How cute!! I WANT THAT TOY. And of course if Kevin came along with it, it'd be even better. Hahaha. Kiddingzzz.
Anyway, today Ashley came over~ Yayyyy. We were supposed to do homework. No wait, we actually did homework. I think we deserve a round of applause here. Hehehe. We didn't do A LOT, but we did more than i expected to have done. My grandma was here too, so we made tang yuan and all. So anyway, seow had dinner here and left at around 10 :) I missed her~~ But i miss Anna too. That girl's in Bali. Hope she's going fine and being safe. If you are reading this, take care bbyg!!!
Kay, so the reason why i'm up so late blogging, is that I was actually watching a K-drama with my mum. We bought this dvd set of this really damn good drama and we're hooked on it. We can't stop watching. That's the dangerous thing about dramas and stuff like that, once you're interested, you'll never stop. Hahah. Wise words eh? :P
Kay la, I'm off to bed now. It's late and I've got a long day ahead tomorrow.
Goodnight everyone! :) D-2 to Christmas!!! <3

ashley is awesome

2011-12-22T17:38:00.001+08:00

hello. ashley here. hahahaha. i'm at megans house now. trying to do the english homework but idk how to do it.............. and no one is helping and joanne is sleeping hahaha wtf. megan is on the floor doing her chinese homework but i don't have chinese homework because i'm just that awesome. omg i cant wait for christmas~~~~~~~~~~ :D PRESENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol ok bye

I'm sorry.

2011-12-22T00:49:00.000+08:00

Hi guyssss.
So yesterday was super fun! kay like kinda. hahah. First i went out with my family to raffles. I was honestly in a rally bad mood because of some things there were said and stuff. But they're my family so I'm just gonna brush things off. So anyway, afterwards my mum dropped me off at parkway to get my books. I met Anna there since she was doing some stuff and was going to seow's place.
After getting my books, we cabbed and i went home while she went to ashley's. In less than an hour i received a call from them asking if they could come over. HAHAH. I really love them. They're so funny. We did the usual and then headed to subway for dinner around 8ish. We hung around there and then Keith joined us~ He bought his food then went back to my place. Hahahah. It was already like 10 i think! After awhile they left la, they didn't stay for long cause they all had to go home. except for keith who went to ashley's.
Holy shit i'm talking so much i bet that was damn boring. HAHAHAH. Sorry. :P
I honestly am really thankful for my friends. Now that the year is ending, i've been thinking a lot about what has happened. And honestly, I know i could've done better. In terms of being a daughter, student, friend and a person as a whole. I'm really gonna work on it next year. Especially since it's O level year. My priorities are gonna have to be sorted out and I need to be a better person. I know i say that every year, but it's true.
Okayokay, this is damn long and shit. hahaha.
K bye <3 I love Anna and Ashley cause they are just my bestfriends~~~ k bye.

Shooting Star~

2011-12-19T21:40:00.001+08:00

Hi hi!! I took two of those pictures yesterday with the intention to blog but I got lazy. Sorry. I'm practicing camwhoring cause Christmas is coming ok. Hahahah.

So today i got my new sim :) Yayyy. At least now I can contact people like Anna and my parents when I need to. I'm using my dad's old iPhone in the mean time. Hopefulle I'll get my bb back soon then I won't have to feel so bad about having to borrow stuff from my dad.

Anyway, today when getting my new sim, Anna met my mum and I. We had lunch, hung around pp a bit then headed back to my place where we did some work. k honestly we didn't do anything. Anna and I are usually much more productive people but I guess we're still in the holiday mood. Can't blame us, especially with Christmas around the corner. Keke.
Speaking of which, I cannot wait for it. I'll be spending Christmas with dad this year. Then on boxing day there's a family gathering for my mum's side. I think i'm going shopping on weds to get presents too. Woo~~
Kay, I actually have to go continue doing my Chinese holiday homework now. I've got tons to do. Wish me luck. :'(
Byebye <3 All those who are sick, especially ASHLEY SEOW, please take care ok? Love you loads!
<3 <3

526

2011-12-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

I know i'm beautiful don't need to tell me ;) HAHAHA.

Kay la, i was joking. obviously... K la, today was alrighttt. didn't do much. Anna came over at around 3 and left at 5. Just to hang around and stuff. Then went to my dad's cousin's place for dinner their other friends. It was alrighttt. they were talking about adult stuff but i guess it was pretty entertaining. :)

This may sound kinda pathetic and extremely immature, but I honestly I would love to be hopelessly and helplessly in love. And I was thinking about like what kinda guys I like or I would go for.

I guess I would love to date someone who is just like me. Not being cocky or anything. But i want a guy who I can rely on. I honestly think I'm a pretty reliable person. If i'm not then just leave me alone and don't burst my bubble. no but i want a reliable guy. Both physically and emotionally reliable. I want to be able to look for him for support and all. I'd really like that.

I'd also love a guy who's intelligent and hard working. I like guys who say smart things and aren't too rash. Decent guys who speak well and think before they speak. I don't need someone who's good at their studies but someone who tries and who actually bothers. A person with EQ, yknow?

And lastly someone who's a dork. HAHA. An adorkable guy. Has the same sense of humour as me yknow. Someone who won't judge me if I do Pikachu impersonations. Someone who I'm not even shy of doing it in front of in the first place. Heheh. Much like a best friend. He should play xbox with me and dance around my room singing completely off tune and just being a total idiot. I'd really like that.

So yeah, I guess those are just the things i would love in a guy besides loyalty and stuff like that. hahah. I don't even know why i'm telling everyone this. I'm not even saying I deserve someone that perfect. (to me) Hahah, I just dream too much~~

Kk, that's it for today i guess. hehe nighty night ^_^ And all those people who are sick/injured pls take care and rest <3

Night <3

Hong Kong

2011-12-16T21:26:00.000+08:00

Hi guyssss!
I'm back from Hong Kong :) Sorry I didn't update while i was there despite having wifi. I was just super tired.
So basically, on the first day, mum and I arrived and we had dinner with my aunty and her family. :) Yeah, they went too and they stayed in a different room. We had a big dinner and then had steamed egg afterwards. Sooooo good.
Second day we went sight seeing around this island. We had to take the cable car there and I was scared shitless. Mum and uncle decided that we ride the 'crystal cabin'. Basically, the ground is transparent. Omg i was scared shitless but I loosened up after awhile. But was still scared. I was shaking and shit. Hahahah. We were out walking from like 10am till after dinner. I was exhaustedddd. But dinner was beyond satisfaction, as usual :) We had a steamboat thingum. that means, BEEF. I love beef :D
On the last day, everyone did their own thing. My aunty and her family went to Disneyland while my mum and I went shopping :) Tbh, we didn't buy much. Simply because everything there was for cold weather. I only managed to get casual shirts and all. I got a new pair of shoes which are adorable and rilakkuma bedroom slippers. omg they're adorable ok i love them so much :D
So, today i got up at 5am for our flight back and i arrived in singapore around noon :) I loved the trip. The weather was so nice and cold and I really enjoyed spending time with my mother. heheh.
Sorry this post is so long!!! My pictures are on fb but i'll upload a couple soon~!
<3

Good bye baby!

2011-12-12T22:48:00.000+08:00

And there you see my extreme disability to camwhore. HAHAHA.

Anyway, that's my new beanie for my trip to hong kong tomorrow ^^ I can't wait to go shopping ohmagawd. hahaha. It's gonna be cold so I can't wait. My skin and hair will be much nicer. Hehe :P

I actually haven't packed but after this post I'll start. I already made a list of things to pack anyway. I'll be only there till Friday. :) Not too long.

Oh and I told my mum about my phone. Or rather the lack of it. hahahah. She said that i have to make it up to mark since it's his. So i'm bringing him out to get shoes which are super ex ok so it's a big deal.

Okay, i should go now and get packing!!

Sorry for the short post! I'll try my best to update while in Hong kong :)

kk bye <3

Dead.

2011-12-10T01:14:00.001+08:00

Hi.

I'm really quite upset right now. Though i've been trying my best to hold it in. It's really killing me.

I lost my phone yesterday. I was 100% sure I put it in my bag, but i don't exactly zip my bag. So Anna and i kinda suspect that someone stole it. Cause I'm super careful when it comes to these things and like, I'm really sure I didn't leave it on the bus or anything. Though it is likely, but yeah..

Sorry i haven't been updating even though yesterday was really eventful. I shall start now :P

Yesterday, I met Anna to go watch Breaking Dawn Part 1. :) It was not bad. Though half the time I was laughing at bella and edward. I must admit that it was good. The graphics was really good. As in the fight scene between the werewolves and vampires. :) And Bella is like a super hot vampire from what I've seen. I was really grossed out at the part when she breaks her back and shit. I covered my eyes and shit. Hahah so traumatizing!

Anyway, after that, we headed to siglap starbucks for free starbucks day :) and that was when i realised i had lost my phone. Anyway, we met Ashley there and had our drinks then went back to my place cause we were early for dinner. Then we went for dinner at Simpang with Keith, Mel Rae, Aloy, Brendan and Derek. :) I didn't eat though. Had no appetite and was freaking out about my phone. But later that night, when Anna was sleeping over we shared a bowl of instant noodles. :P

Okay, shall end here la :) Though I think I'll be blogging more later around 2 if i can't sleep cause i've got tons on my mind.

Anyways, hope everyone's days are totally different than mine and ya'll are enjoying your hols!

<3 Saranghae~

I will take care of you, okay?

2011-12-07T22:28:00.001+08:00

Old picture i took when i was bored...
hi guys :)
I'm actually at my dad's now! Having a headache. No idea why... Shall finish up this post and then head to bed. :)
so today was pretty uneventful. As usual. I've been procrastinating again. But one thing i got done was the Christmas tree! decorated it with my mum, maid and cousin. It looks pretty i guess. hahah don't all Christmas trees? :P You can see how it looks like from my instagram!
So like, i actually have a purpose with this post! Just now, Alfred tweeted something about wanting to 'jump down' which i know he didn't mean, like obviously. But it kinda got me thinking about how like, nowadays, I've been pretty absorbed in my own life. Doing my own thing, messing around on tumblr and stuff like that. Because of all that, my regard for everything and everyone around me has decreased immensely. And i would seriously wanna apologise for that. I'm not trying to be egoistic and say that I'm such a big impact to everyone's life that I have to apologise.
But i mean, to those who I mean something to (if any), I'm sorry.. Just like, don't forget I'm always here for you and that I still care about all of you guysss. People like, Ashley, Anna, Lavina, Erssy, Leroy. Ya'll are my closest friends! I don't even think you guys read my blog but if you do, then great :P
I just love being alone so much sometimes it's not funny. HAHA. I love company and I tend to get lonely. But I kinda like the feeling of nobody being around to annoy/hurt/frustrate me. heh. I'm pretty angsty anyway.
K, sorry for this long post. Thinking about it, it sounded a lot nicer in my head. HAHA. K then.
night everyoneee!!! <3 Be happy and hope the rest of your week is great!!!

Scorpion Dance

2011-12-05T22:06:00.001+08:00

Hi guys!! :)

Today was extremely unproductive and lame. I didn't do anything. :( But I think tomorrow will be different. I've got to start on my holiday homework and my mum's leaving work early to come home and decorate the Christmas Tree and we all know that decorating the Christmas tree is family thing right? So yeah! :)

But the annoying thing is that I can't stand things being disorganised and all, so before I even start on my work I'll most probably be spending an hour or so organising all my worksheets and books. Aish.. Anyway, I've been practicing my Cry Cry cover. For the Alpha Auditions. I actually have to ask Mel about some stuff. Like the details and all. I also need to check why I didn't receive the email too. Hmm.

Oh! Speaking of dancing, I was trying out the Scorpion dance just awhile ago! geez it's really tough. You'll need tons of upper body strength to push yourself up from the ground. For those who don't know what it is, go youtube it. Or go watch Infinite's 'Before The Dawn' dance version.

So yeah, even though I did absolutely nothing today, I still managed to update. hehe, i'm just that talkative i guess.. :P

Okie dokes, I shall end off here! If i can't sleep or anything I'll update again ^^

Night guys! And have a good week ahead! <3

You're My +

2011-12-04T23:26:00.001+08:00

hi guysss! :)
I've been feeling really good nowadays! :)
Today my mum and I sent Michael off to Supercamp. Ahhh, i felt so sad while roaming around the place. I really miss it but I've already decided to give it a miss this year. So I'll just attend next year ^^
After sending him off, we walked around marina bay area. We went to check out the marathon and along the way we got some pictures with/of the elephants which are currently being exhibited at places around Singapore as installation art. :) They're really adorable!
We then headed back to the hotel to check out and head home. :) I didn't have lunch cause I slept right through. for dinner, Mark, mummy and I just went to Bedok Corner. We also rented a movie to watch!
It's called "My Boyfriend Is Blood Type B" It was really funny and cute. :) It's basically about a girl who's blood type A which is timid and sensitive, who meets a guy who's blood type B which is basically the opposite and mostly believed as 'bad guys' for type A girls. So yeah :)
Heheh i really liked it cause I'm a type A too. So i guess I kinda saw a bit of myself in that girl. Like how i was like in a relationship and all. :p
kay, this post is kinda long right? I'm sorry. And also sorry for the embarrassing and extremely lame video on my previous post. heheh.
Kk bye! <3

fullerton hotel ^^

2011-12-03T21:26:00.001+08:00

i was too lazy to blog hehehe. bye.

Shooting Star

2011-12-01T09:24:00.001+08:00

Hi guys!
I'm blogging in the morning, yes. hahah. I'm supposed to be at training now actually. But i've decided to give it a miss cause my eyes are freaking swollen and my throat hurts. On top of that I'm have a bad runny nose. Super annoying right?
I really wanted to go for training though. I guess I'll have no choice but to go tomorrow. It's not like i could train properly with puffy eyes and having to blow my nose every 5 to 10 minutes.
Oh and also, Star Empire has uploaded their Christmas song! It's called Shooting Star. :) It's really adorable. I already downloaded it. hahah. Last night actually.
Oh btw, i took that picture ^^^^^^^ Pretty cool right? :P hehe. Omg, today is Seow's retest you know? Good luck to her and I'm sure she'll do well. <3 <3 I have faith in her and she's been studying really hard! It has to pay off!
Kk, shall end off here. Not much to say since it's like 9 in the morning.
Byebye

New blogger

2011-11-28T22:12:00.001+08:00

Eh sup guys!
that's one of the pictures i managed to take. It's CAP and Chunji in the bus. hahaha.
Kk, anyway. Today, Anna and Seow came over! They came over for dinner and so i could teach seow about The Mole. I'm really hoping and praying she does well for the retest. I know she can do it!
So the dinner was really fun. We were talking a lot to my mum and all. :) It's always fun with anyone in LAMA. lol.
Tomorrow i've got training. Kinda have no mood for it. But i've got to start being more hard working and all for the holidays. Whether it's about exercising or studying. I mean, i've yet to finish my holiday homework and all not forgetting the dances i planned to learn during the holidays! I have to practice for the auditions too. Omg.
This is really so much for me. But i'm gonna do it. ^^ With or without the support of anyone. Because to be honest, i don't feel like anyone can give me any emotional support nowadays. I'm pretty much alone in this..
Alrighto, i'm gonna have an early night because i've got quite a number of things on my mind.
Night guyssss. Have a good week alright? :) <3

TEEN TOP JJANG

2011-11-27T21:46:00.003+08:00

Hi guys.
I haven't been updating. Simply because Teen Top has been taking over my life. Hahahah. I was busy stalking them (kinda) and was at Sundown Festival. I shall fill you in on the fan service and details ok ^^

First night : Airport

At the airpot, Anna helped to take pictures while i tried my best to pass the bear to Chunji. Chunji glanced at the bear but didn't take it. Security was really tight.. But LJoe tried to take my bear and couldn't reach it so he waved at Cheryl and I instead! It's on fancam ok ^^ I also met Cheryl and Sherrie through Regine while at the Airport. Cheryl's a fellow Chunji bias. hehe.

Second day : Hotel

On the second day, since we didn't wanna go to the fanmeet, cheryl, regine, sherrie and another new friend, Belinda and i went to the hotel to wait for them! They took really awesome polaroids! I got a good picture of Chunji and CAP and a few of their Manager. Who is way hot btw.

SUNDOWN!

It was the besttttt. I went with nicole, regine, cheryl and belinda. Though the planning was kinda screwed, I managed to get tons of pictures of them and a fancam of "The Back Of My Hand Brushes Against" After their performance, we waved goodbye while they were on the bus. And while their bus was stuck at the light because of the wayyy heavy traffic. 4 of us ran along the pavement and waved at them from the bus stop outside their bus! Chunji waved at us! omg. then cheryl and i formed a heart and threw it at him. He threw one back! then Changjo started waving and we waved back and he blew us a kiss! we caught it then he pointed and winked. it was really hottttt.

so yeah, that was basically the best week of my life. I'll post up pictures and videos another day. :)

Night guys.

If you have read until here i sincerely thank you for tolerating my Teen Top fangirling.

Facts.. 3?

2011-11-23T10:59:00.002+08:00

Hi guys. I'm stuck in my room. The reason is that my house is apparently gonna be featured in a magazine and the people are here to take pictures of it. I'm not allowed to interfere. i can't even go take a shower. So in the mean time, I shall just post more facts about me. lol.

21. I think one of the best things about having a boyfriend is cuddling.

22. When i get home from a long day, and it's really warm, i'll just go straight to my room and take off my shirt.

23. Im currently reading the book "Kira-kira." I think i'm too old for it, cause the words are big. but it's a really cool book.

24. My favourite colours are red, purple, blue, yellow, green and grey.

25. I can't sleep without hugging anything.

26. I sleep with 3 stuff toys, a carebear called Ezra, A rabbit called Lili and a bear called Bobby.

27. Though I come off as quite loud, most of my opinions are kept to myself and I'm a rather timid person.

28. I rarely get angry. It's usually disappointment or like sadness. Not much anger.

29. My birthday is on the 8th of may!!!

30. I think i'm patient. I just have my off days.. hahah

Kay that's it. gonna get ready now.

Bye <3

500 days of Teen Top

2011-11-22T23:15:00.002+08:00

Hi guys!

It's teen top's 500th day! Not in Korea, but in Singapore. Hahah.

I'm so happy for them~ I feel bad cause I wasn't a fan since their "Clap" era. And only discovered them during NMPOY. But no complains. I'm glad i discovered them in the first place. This group is really daebak. They're so young! Changjo and Ricky are only 16 and they look so matured already! CAP, being a great leader. Niel with his vocals. Ljoe with his sexy rapper's voice. And not forgetting my favourite, Chunji. <3

I guess they've really come a long way. I love how each of them are so innocent. Their group aspires to be like Shinhwa, in terms of being able to keep their friendships till they are old. I think that is really nice. It's not all about their fame, but they want to treasure each other too. I'm so proud of them, especially for winning their Rookie Award recently. :) I know they're not doing as well as Infinite, but with their practice for their next comeback, i hope they catch up!

Then they can be Teenfinite forever! <3

formspring

2011-11-22T19:50:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone~

My formspring's kinda killing me right now. Hahah no, not killing me. But it's just that there are many misunderstandings based on my previous post. I shall try and clear those now.

Firstly, i don't have a boyfriend. That post is not to my boyfriend. I am not in love with that person. I really did not want to resort to saying this, but that person is my best friend.

Secondly, on to that point of that person is my best friend. I'm that person's best friend too. According to that person. So yes, I am in the position to expect more from that person. I'm not the kind of person who step over their boundaries and rights like that.

Thirdly, If you guys really think I am being over the top. Then you obviously have no idea how long i've been tolerating this. "They busy, deal with it la?" I have dealt with it. For awhile now. And I'm always there for that person. But if the person can never be there for me, I don't see why I should continue to "deal with it"

Fourthly, about my expectations. I'm sorry but NONE of ya'll even know how much i expect. To be honest, i've never really expected much from that person. But i mean, to receive nothing? Do you think I'll still happily go around being treated like that? Whether that person realises it or not.

Fifth. About me having other people. Such as Annabelle. yes, i have her. Don't make it seem like i'm ungrateful for the other people in my life. Cause I am truly 100% grateful for them. But between some of those people, I can't trust them fully. Because I have had my fair share of disagreements with them. And with that person, I haven't. That person and I have been through a lot. I trust that person more than my other friends. Do you think I can just run to any soul and pour my life out to them? Isn't that a bit... easy? I have issues with trusting people, and with that person, i've been able to build my trust with that person without any problems. That's why that person is my best friend.

And lastly, I've settled everything with that person already. After awhile, I've finally managed to have a proper conversation with that person today. Just awhile ago actually. So, i've solved my own problem. Did i tell the person to be there for me "24/7"? no. I simply told that person how much i missed that person, and how i felt that they did not have time for me already and that i was upset about that. Because it's true. That is how i feel. In my post, that's all i said. In my post i specifically said "I don't hate you, I'm not angry. Nothing. I just don't feel like I'm significant anymore. I'm just hurt."

So if ya'll still have any disputs, then I don't know what to say anymore except that there's nothing to attack me for. Because it's settled.

Bye.

아파

2011-11-22T00:16:00.002+08:00

I don't know why I pretend that I can rely on you. Why I still believe that you're always there for me. Of course I love you and all. But it's hard when you don't give me a reason to. I understand you're really busy with the many things in your life you have to handle, but if I'm the one who has to constantly be there for you, when is there gonna be enough time for me? When is there gonna be enough time to just have fun and talk to each other about anything we want. Not just listening to complains and problems, but also about the nonsense and silly jokes.

What happened to us? What happened to you? I miss you. Even when we're talking. It's not that you've changed, it's just that you've been so caught up in everything else, that you don't even have time for yourself. I hate that.

I wish I could do something to help. I wish I could take away everyone and everything that's making you stressed. A year ago, we were so close. Now I feel like it's just an empty title. I'm not saying you're using me. But nowadays, you can't even talk to me just for fun because there will always be something you need help with.

I miss us so much. Even though you say you're always 'there'. I feel like nobody is. I still feel lonely. It shouldn't have to be that way. You're never actually there anymore.

I don't hate you, I'm not angry. Nothing. I just don't feel like I'm significant anymore. I'm just hurt.

Blading

2011-11-21T22:14:00.002+08:00

Eh sup guys.

Today was supposed to be lazy monday. But ended up spending time with Erssy~ :) Kinda good though, cause I didn't laze around and eat all day. She was supposed to come over but we decided to go blading instead! It was her idea, actually.

It felt really good blading! I haven't bladed in like months! I almost forgot I got new blades. We bladed to Lagoon, had some ice kacang and then bladed back. :) At my place, we had dinner and just hund around.

Ahhh, i love erssy so much. :) It's been awhile since it's been just two of us hanging out and all! Felt so nice just talking to her like old times~
I am aware that the second picture is kinda blur, but i think it's kinda cute. Haha our faces are kinda spastic and shit. Hahaha.

Okie dokes, that's it for today. Tomorrow I have a friendly against Springfield. Wish me luck! ^^ Night guys! <3

All My Love

2011-11-21T00:23:00.004+08:00

Hi guyssss.

Today was a pretty chill day. The only thing productive i did was go for tuition. Other than that, i stayed home and hung around with mummy.

Ive also started watching this sitcom called All My Love. It's really cute. And easy to watch cause it's only 20mins per ep. Ga In, Jo Kwon, Kim Na Young and Doojoon act in it! They're all so adorable! hahah. The story line is quite funny and the acting is quite comical so it doesnt leave all depressed afterwards, Unlike Jungle Fish 2. Though I still love that show.

I'm kinda getting really bored and lonely nowadays. I need a new friend. Like a texting buddy or like someone I can Skype with or something. Like a bestfriend. Nothing's wrong with leroy! It's just that he's always busy. And I like having someone who I can just talk about anything to, not always problems. Because to be honest, I practically don't have any. The only ones I have only leave me sad for like less than 20mins. No complains!!

Kay so, i'm gonna continue watching All My Love since I don't actually have anyone to talk to. Sad life. Heheh.

Byebye <3 Hope you guys had a good weekend!

2011-11-20T00:58:00.001+08:00

omg wtf i don't know why the pictures are so big, stupid blogger. fuck u nigga. hahaha k bye.

LAMAs

2011-11-20T00:25:00.002+08:00

Hi guysss.

Today went out with the LAMAs. As in (L)avina, (A)nnabelle, (M)egan, (A)shley. Hahah. we went to chinatown first to go to oakham. I bought a top. :)

After that we went to scape for the flea. Bumped into Keisha, Fashikah, Naimi, Manue, Kim and Cesco there. Keisha and her friends had a stall set up :) There was a stall which was selling Soshi, Infinite, SHINee and MBLAQ albums for like 10bucks each. I would've bought if i had money but I didn't so yeah. :(

I also got a new iPhone case for my iPhone. It's actually for iTouch i think, but it fits alright so no problem I guess. I wanted to get new earphones. But they i couldn't find any purple or yellow ones so whatevvv. After the flea we headed across the street for dinner. I didn't eat though. I just stole bites from the others. I was broke. :(

I actually just bathed. Before that I was skyping with Erssy. <3 I'm kinda just having an imaginary sleepover with myself right now. Like, yeah... I'm lonely. I wish I had a sister or a boyfriend. teehee.

Kk, i should most prob shut up now. :P

Byebye <3

532

2011-11-18T20:18:00.002+08:00

Hello!

I just realised how the earlier pictures of me don't really show how short my hair is now, so there's a better one!

I went out with Anna today to watch a movie! We watched 23:59! It was really good for a singapore production. The acting was not bad and all. So yeah!

Tomorrow will most probably be meeting the LAMAs to celebrate Ashley's birthday. LAMA means Lavina, Ashley, Megan and Annabelle. HAHAHA. Don't judge us. :P

I don't actually have much to say. I actually haven't showered since i got back which is quite gross. So i shall go shower now.

Have a great weekend guysss!

Bye! <3

Cover Girl.

2011-11-17T11:43:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone. That is a very unglam picture of me. what i look like in the morning. Hahah my hair is a mess!

But anyway, i've got training later. At Valhall. Hopefully i'll be able to get there no problem unlike on tuesday. If you don't know what happened, it's kinda too bad because I don't wish to repeat the story. hehe. :P

Anyways, yesterday was my mum's birthday! I went over to Anna's the night before and we baked a cake for and for seow. Then i slept over and all. Then yesterday, my family surprised my mum and all! she was super happy. ^^ i love my mummy. <3

At night, Anna and I surprised seow for her birthday which is today! We went over to her place and her dad let us in, then we barged into her room with our cake and wished her happy birthday. It was so epic cause she was watching Danny Phantom and checking her mail. So when she saw us her reaction was. "whut." hahah, then she realised what was happening and she got all excited. gah, love herrrr. <3

Okay, i've got to get ready for training now. Just thought i'd give an update before doing so.

Bye everyone <3

530

2011-11-14T21:37:00.003+08:00

hi guyz.

just got back from town with mother dearest. ^^

we did our hair at this place in orchard central! It's so cool because there are 2 korean hairdressers there, one of which did my hair. and the other hairdresser was his girlfriend. how cute. kk anyway, the coolest part is that they did Brown Eyed Girls' hair when they came. And SHINee too i think? not sure. But seriously, how cool is that? Hahah. Anyway, I dyed my hair a light-ish brown colour. Like kinda Auburn? I also got it cut cause my ends are way too dry. I'm super satisfied with it!

After that, we went to Editor's Market and I got 3 tops. Not gonna camwhore and show it to ya'll because I'd rather let ya'll see it when i go out. :P Okay so after that we went to Great World City and had Kenny Rodgers for dinner :) We went there cause mum left her car there cause she knew it would be hard to find parking at orchard.

So that pretty much sums up my day uh. I'm super grateful for my mum. :) It was a good day out with her! I hope we have more days like this. I would really love it.

Kk, i should end off now. This is kinda long. hehe sorry.

Byebye. xx <3

Annyeong!

2011-11-11T20:11:00.002+08:00

Hello everyoneeee.

Hahaha my face is the picture is kinda gross but anyway. the point is that I will be going to church camp this weekend. Yeah, two days only. But yknow... Hahah.

I actually haven't packed. Not that there will be much to pack! I'm most probably just bringing my school bag or something. :)

I don't know how I am going to survive in the outside world for 2 days and a night. I pray that I will be safe. Hahahaha. I kid. I sure it'll be kinda fun! With Sarah, Mel, Keith, Chey, Manue and all! Whether we're all gonna be hanging out together is another thing though. But we'll see. :) I don't have anything against anyone la, it only depends whether they have anything against me. But hopefully not. :/

Okay so anyway, the point of this post is just to say byebye.

So, Bye, Annyeong, Zai Jian, Ciao! <3

Be My Baby

2011-11-09T22:49:00.003+08:00

Helloooo.

My updates are getting more regular right? Is that good? Or annoying that I update too much? Aish, who reads anyway? :P

Kay, so today was training again! Ugh, it was exceptionally tiring today because Vanessa and Tracy couldn't come. :( So I had to do a lot of the explaining and all! I'm just glad tomorrow is the last day. Anymore of this and I'm gonna die of exhaustion. Oh and after training, Shericia, Nurul, Tiffany, Shameen and I headed to Swensens for a late lunch! It was super good. :)

Omg, and I'm like counting down to Teen Top's arrival in Singapore. I'm really super excited! It feels so surreal that I'd be able to see the biggest celebrity crush I've ever had in real life. Ugh, this is just too good to be true. :) For some strange reason, I'm not as excited for Infinite. Maybe because Teen Top's coming first. Oh well!

Kk, will end off here.

Hope everyone is doing well and having a good week so far.

Sleepless Nights.

2011-11-08T23:49:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone!

I have training tomorrow but i'm still up! Since I can't sleep and I have nothing better to do, other than eat my yanyan, I'll blog.

So today's training was kinda cool. We went to KCP for the floorball clinic CIP thing. It was kinda fun la! This year's batch of P6s were much better than the previous years' for some strange reason! Had quite a lot of fun cause we were fooling around here and there a bit.

But I was super tired! No idea why! I came home, bathed and all then slept from 3 30 till like 8 15! Crazy stuff! I guess thats partly the reason why I'm wide awake now.

But i've also been having a lot on my mind lately. I'm just getting really.. insecure and unsure of what people around me think of me. I just don't feel as safe and as happy anymore. I'm always scared people are bitching about my behind my back and all. Which shouldn't be the case because I have been trying my best to make everyone around me happy and just be nice to everyone. Not to the extent that I'm being fake. But I genuinely want to be nice.

I don't know anymore. I've got so much more to say, but I think this post is a bit too long.

Anyway, I'll update soon!

Goodnight everyone <3

Can You Smile?

2011-11-07T21:23:00.002+08:00

Helloooo.

My hair looks browner right? Idk how! but yeah! I was skyping with Erssy and she asked me if i dyed my hair and all. hehe how cool. ^^

So today i went over to Anna's for a swim and some catching up! Though we didn't meet for only a couple days, it felt like a week or more. It was fun just like wading around the pool and talking. :) we also tanned. I got so much tanner! The sun was scorching so i guess it was kinda expected. But i think it's mostly my body which got tanner. not really my face. no idea why. Nonetheless, I had fun! It's always nice hanging out with Anna la. :)

I'm actually pretty tired. I think I'll head to bed before 12 tonight. Especially since there's training tomorrow. This week is gonna be extremely tiring :(

Tue-Thurs I'll be having training. And then camp on Saturday and Sunday. Though Friday can be like a break or something, I'll have to do packing for camp. So yeap.

Hope you guys are having a relaxed holiday unlike my busy week! I'll end off here!

confused.

2011-11-05T22:01:00.002+08:00

hi everyone.

I know it was only a really short while ago since I blogged. But i just HAD to say this. And the picture has nothing to do with my post. I also just had to show you guys how adorable and hot Dongjun can be at the same time.

Ok so I HATE that feeling when like, someone is really super duper annoying like you want to stab that person till death. But it's just so hard to get angry at that person because of god knows what reason. It's so frustrating. Like seriously. Why can't i get angry at that person?! Why do I still want to be friends with that person?! UGH.

Kay sorry if that was completely confusing. Or if it didn't make any sense but that is how I feel ok. Ugh.

I'm gonna have an early night. Everybody should be happy and not be as frustrated as I am. Have a good rest!!

Goodnight. :) <3

Screwed

2011-11-05T21:02:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone.

My sleep schedule is pretty messed up. Didn't get any sleep at all last night. Reached home at 1 ish and only woke up at like 5 45. But i'm still pretty tired so MAYBE i'll be able to sleep tonight :)

On a lighter note, school has ended! No more structured lessons and shizz. Only training and all! Which I don't mind because it'll help me keep fit while I'm pigging out during the holidays.

I seriously love the holidays. I can do anything I want! I intend to finish learning Good Bye Baby and So Cool soon. And start on either Clap or Mirotic. Or maybe even Be Mine. I don't know. There's just so much to do! Hahah. So exciting ^_^

My nose is being really annoying right now. I keep sneezing for no reason. I'm not even in an air con room. ugh.

Kay, I'm gonna end off here. Maybe later when/if I can't sleep I'll blog again.

Halloween!

2011-10-31T15:25:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone!

As i said in the previous post, here's the update on how i spent the weekend. :)

So on saturday, in the morning, all the sec 3s had some CIP thing. Attended that.

Then in the evening was Hannah's(erssy's sister) Birthday/Halloween party at Erssy's place. It was fun! We went trick or treating and all! Have tons of sweets now. :) I brought Michael along since Syaza was bringing her brother, Izz, along too. Most of us didn't have costumes so we all just wore headbands! I wore my cat ears which i wore for Miss A :)

Thanks to Erssy for inviting me! And Syaza, Sharifah, ili, Jen and Kat for the super duper fun time. :)

Sunday was super lame.. I got grounded from coming home from the party the day before so I was grounded for 3 days. Which meant I couldn't attend Cel's confirmation. I'M SORRY CEL. :( But anyway, I had to go for tuition still. Which was quite alright! It was super quiet and empty cause Ashley, Rachel and Senjoo all didn't go.

So yeap! There's my weekend for you! I should go now since this is really long!

BYE <3

Facts 2.0

2011-10-30T00:25:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone! Today was awesome, but I'll update about it tomorrow and I'll post pictures too!

For today, I'll list another 10 facts about me, since I can't sleep. So here it goes~

11. I can't leave the house without brushing my teeth!

12. I'm a floorballer and I play as an attacker/forward

13. I actually love learning and I love studying but i'm just too tired most of the time.

14. I want to be at least 167cm tall. I'm only 160ish now.

15. My family thinks I'm the kind of person who doesn't care about anything and is someone who constantly lazes around.

16. I love it when people compliment my body cause I do make the effort to try and get it toned. Though I still need to be thinner.

17. I consider myself as a practical person.

18. I cannot stand excessive noise and noisy people.

19. Guys who look good in beanies are 10 times hotter than other guys.

20. I think my body is super weird cause I have a long torso!

Kay that's all! I am tired now!

Goodnight <3

Last day of school. Not.

2011-10-28T18:13:00.003+08:00

Hello! :)

It's Friday! and supposedly the last day of school. But us, sec 3s have another week of structured lessons. fml.

The pictures for Teen Top's pictures from their Daekyung University perf are up! They've all revealed their new hair! Chunji's is ADORABLE! It's like a bowl hair cut kinda! But in the pictures he was wearing a beanie! Which doubles the cuteness i swear!

Okay enough about Chunji! Today we had a friendly against Bedok North. or South. I do not remember and i always get them mixed up. I'm terribly sorry. Anyway, we won! I don't know the exact score but I know i scored a cool ass goal. :) To me it was cool at least!

I'm currently super tired! from the match and all. Somemore training is on Thursdays and Fridays. How annoying! But i guess it's good. I'm starting to feel extremely fit nowadays! ^__^

Okay so, i should go now!

BYE <3

519

2011-10-25T21:09:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone!

I didn't go to school today. The school is kinda paranoid in my opinion. They called both my house phone and my mum's phone. They did that to Nicole too! Crazy stuff!

I have a bite on the top of my lip now! Not cool man! Damn red and unglam. Thank god i'm at home and nobody can see me! :)

Anyway, i read 6 chapters of a book while resting at home today. It was cool la. Michael, mum and i hung around at home. :) We watched a movie and all. Felt really good!

Okay this is a short post cause i honestly don't have anything to say! :P

Bye <3

2011-10-24T21:04:00.002+08:00

Hey guyz.

Today was cool! Went out and all. And also applied for a job at the ice cream gallery near my place. Hopefully they let me work there! It's so convenient for me and yeah :)

eh nice not those pictures? thinking of changing my blog picture to those. Please tell me if they're nice and whether i should change or not okay? If ya'll choose not to then i will be very sad. Hahaha. I kid. No but like i could really use your opinions.

So recently i've been feeling kinda lonely? I miss have someone there all the time yknow? Like a bestfriend I could hang out with and not be afraid of like any backstabbing or any of that nonsense. All this bitching keeps happening nowadays and I really don't have the patience or the strength to take it anymore. I'm getting extremely tired of all of it. Haiyah.

I wish my mother would just take her new job and I can move to Hong Kong and start anew.

Kay, shall end here for today.

Goodnight everyone! It's only a week of school left for most of you guys. And for the sec 3s in my school and maybe others, it's just 2 more weeks!

Fighting <3

Neverland~

2011-10-23T23:08:00.002+08:00

I want his nose. Like seriously. Mine is so big and ugly. I admit okay. So ya'll can make fun of me and my ugly nose because i know. Argh. :(

Okay anyway, this weekend was alright! Saturday was rather unproductive. I just spent the day at home and practiced dancing Good Bye Baby. I've gotten the timing and everything good till the end of the first chorus. I know the moves for the second verse, but need to practice more :/

Saturday night for dinner, I went over to my dad's! Uncle Francis came for a visit and stayed the night :) It was cool seeing him again. It's always nice seeing family. :)

And today, didn't do much. Besides having tuition in the evening. I arrived like half an hour late! Stupid MRT kept stopping in between stops. :( We've started on a new chapter. Ugh. Vectors. :(

So yeah, this post is kinda boring right? Hahaha. I'm don't know what to say you see. My mum's making me get a job for the hols. She specifically wants me to work at macs. but NO WAY! I really don't want to. :( I'd rather work at an ice cream parlour!

Geezus this is so long!

hehe kk byebye! <3

It's You

2011-10-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone. Sorry the lighting for that picture is kinda weird cause my lamp is next to me and all.

So as i said in my previous post, i'll blog again. So here I am. Idk why it's only 11 50! Feels like I've been online for the longest time. I was watching Infinite's Sesame Player. I've watched till ep 5 already :)

So i've been really broke recently. My mother didn't leave any allowance for me this week when she went to Dubai. Argh. I need tons of money! I need like 70-80bucks for stalking teen top. Another 50 to buy this super adorable dress i saw at f21. And another at least 20 to buy Cel's confirmation present. Oh yeah, I can't forgot the yellow hoodie and other stuff for Chunji~ Argh, i'm going crazy.

I'm starting to like the colour yellow more. Hahah. It's like so exciting whenever i see yellow now. I've never not liked yellow, in fact, I've always loved all colours. But you know what I mean. But i guess my favourite colours are still Red, Purple, Blue, Grey. Black too. Aiya, all colours la.

I think i'm gonna sleep soon. After this i'm gonna go off then maybe i'll use my iPod for awhile more, then sleep. :)

Shit this post is damn long. Okay bye <3

500 Infinite Days!

2011-10-21T14:52:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone!

Today is Infinite's 500th day anniversary! Aww! Though I haven't been an inspirit for long, it's nice to see how well they are doing and how much they have grown. From 'Come Back Again' to 'Before The Dawn' and even to 'Paradise'. They're really super adorable and talented! Especially the triple threats, Dongwoo, Hoya, Sungyeol. The great vocalists, Woohyun, Sunggyu, Myungsoo. And the ever so adorable maknae, Sungjong!

So yeah, there's Infinite for you! I'll blog again later about my life cause this post was just especially dedicated to Infinite. :)

INFINITE FIGHTING. <3

Facts~

2011-10-19T20:08:00.002+08:00

Hi!

I don't really have much to say. Except that i think i'm doing okay for my exams. But yeah, anyway, i'm just gonna state 10 random facts about me. Yknow, for fun.

1. I'm a Taurus and I believe quite a lot in astrology and all though it's against my religion :/

2. I'm blood type A+ :D

3. I love eating peaches, apples, grapes, strawberries and bananas.

4. I don't think I will be able to get a boyfriend any time soon because of the standards Korean boys have set for me. heheheh.

5. I've had many dreams of what i want to be since I was 4. Some of which are firewoman, actress, performer (singer), teacher or a fashion designer.

6. I love brushing my teeth and taking showers!

7. When i get extremely nervous my lips tremble. I usually cry but I've learnt to fight that back now because i mean, it's totally retarded!

8. I love doing Sudoku puzzles and when I get the money/time I will buy a 1000 piece puzzle to complete :)

9. I want to be Kpop star but i'm too afraid of admitting it and even though I think it's a very naive ambition, I kinda really want it.

10. I cry very easily!

Thinner~

2011-10-16T17:11:00.003+08:00

I just had to blog even though it's mid-day which is an awkward time to blog for me.

The occasion is that I LOST WEIGHT.

Okay, I did not exactly weigh myself due to the lack of a weighing scale in my house, but, remember how i said i out on weight and how big my thighs were and all? Yeah, they're smaller now! When i measured my thighs before, they were about 51.5cm. When i put on weight, they were 54.5cm. Now? 52cm! :)

I seriously am super happy now! I need to continue exercising and all and hopefully my thighs can be about 51 or 50cm even! It'd be thinner than Tiffany's (from Snsd) Yay! And I'd have almost perfect leg ratio. Which is 5 : 3 : 2

Mine currently is about 52 : 32 : 21 :) Not bad right? Hahah.

Okay, will blog again soon.

BYE <3

Sunny Saturday~

2011-10-15T21:31:00.002+08:00

Hello!

Today I went for a swim with Erssy, Syaza, our younger siblings. And Erssy's sister's friend. hahah. It was really fun uh :) I got tanner! There's a picture of Erssy and Syaza and I in the background. I don't have the pictures so yeah. After swimming we went over to Erssy's place for tea. Sharifah joined us too :) It was quite fun!

Anyway, Tomorrow i've got tuition. Argh. Hate tuition. Mainly because it's on Sunday. Totally ruins my sundays. But whatever. I've got no school on Monday at least :)

I'm like damn tired now. I don't know why. Must be the swimming all uh. I'm on skype now but i'm not talking. hahah. How awkward.

Kay la, i shall go now. Nothing to say.

Byebye ^__^

Be Mine.

2011-10-14T21:37:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone~

So like firstly, EXAMS ARE OVER.

And secondly, i don't think I'm gonna have a boyfriend in a very very long time. Simply because of the raise in expectations Chunji, Woohyun and Joon have given. And recently, my like towards Sunggyu has increased by a huge ass amount. Because I found out he's a Taurus. Taurus boys are hot! hehe ^__^

So yesterday/today was really cool! Anna stayed over at my place. We needed to do art and all so yeah. We didn't sleep at all. Actually she slept for half an hour i slept for about 15 or less. We went to school to take out art exam in a daze. After the exam, Anna came back over and we took a nap :) At 5ish, we watched MuBank.

BEST INFINITE PARADISE PERFORMANCE EVER BECAUSE THEY WERE DRESSED IN RED SUITS. AND WOOHYUN'S CHEST SHOWED.

They were incredibly hot and performed extremely well. Though they didn't beat Davichi, I'm definitely proud of their success so far. While walking Anna out to the bus stop, we were thinking about how much of daze we were in while going to/at school. It was kinda epic, come to think about it.

Okay this is so long I am so sorry.

Say hi to Anna.

Ok bye. <3

Exhaustion

2011-10-12T19:43:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone.

Sorry it's been awhile since i've updated! And i just realised how 2 of the pictures look the same. ahye, they're not.

Okay, anyway. I've been sick. Yesterday and today. Yesterday was pretty bad. i couldn't get any work or studying down. Art exam's in 2 days and i haven't done my sketches. most prob gonna finish them tonight. I didn't study for chem either. Totally gonna flunk. And during the exam I got a huge ass headache. I couldn't take it. I wanted to die :/ But i didn't! hahah.

I was really extremely upset and angry at myself for getting sick. I couldn't concentrate on anything and spent most of the time bawling my eyes out because i just felt so unlucky and useless. And then today i was hoping things would be different. But there wasn't much improvement.

When i got home I felt really cold and all, turns out my fever came back. So i rested the whole morning. Till lunch. After lunch i got do practice some math. Hopefully tomorrow's paper will be manageable! I've already done a lot :(

So after this i need to go do art. My life really sucks. If i can't finish my art tomorrow, i'm not gonna sleep at all. I've done it before anyway! Won't be a problem! It's just that after the exam i'll most prob die of exhaustion.

Okay, this is quite lengthy. Sorry.

For those who have finished their exams, I'm happy for you ^^ and for those who still have one or two more papers, Good Luck! Especially art girls. Like Nicole Chan. I know she doesn't read this, but we can pull through alright? :) Don't give up!!

Alright, bye everyone. <3

Infinite

2011-10-09T11:54:00.003+08:00

Woohyun. ^^

Kk hi everyone!

It's Sunday morning ish. a few minutes to noon but whatever! I slept pretty late last night, like at around 2. But i managed to wake up at around 8 45! I had a great dream ^^ It was about Doojoon.there, doojoon.

And we were like having a meal together and it was super adorableee!

Okay, so today i'm staying home to do the studying. My mum and Mark are home too. Mum seems kinda lonely cause just a moment a go she persuaded me to go study while she does her work at the table on the 2nd level living area. Kinda hard to explain where it is uh, have to come to my house to understand. ^^ Told her i had to go bathe first.

So thats what i did and now i'm just being a bum, blogging. Haha. But after this i'm gonna study already la so yeah :)

School resumes tomorrow, which means exams! I hope everyone is still working hard and hanging in there! For people at my school, it's only the rest of next week and then we'll be done with it! I don't know about the others but should be the same right?

Good luck everyone! Keep working hard and studying welll!

Fighting~! <3

Chu chu chu~

2011-10-08T23:08:00.004+08:00

No selca today. Just admire this adorable photo of L.Joe, my 2nd bias in teen top and one of my faovourite kpop rappers.

Hello!

Saturday night, in bed, reading fan fics and watching videos. Hahah i should be studying, but i just didn't feel like today. Today was a really lazy, unproductive and useless day. But tomorrow it'll be different. Have to study like mad and do tons of art. Hopefully I can finish all my sketches by tomorrow? :)

And also, I'll be having tuition so that about 3 hours of my life gone. 3 hours cause tuition is 2 plus travelling time. Ugh. oh look, 11 11! K wished ^^

ahh btw, i've put on weight. Like severely. Even my mum noticed. But i've been exercising so yeah! Gonna watch my diet from now on too. wait, have i blogged about this before? argh, i don't remember. k nvm. :P

Someday

2011-10-06T22:54:00.002+08:00

Hahah hi everyone!

I feel quite happy today. I think it's cause i slept the entire afternoon. Cause of exams and all we ended school super early. Then, Ashley, Anna, lavina and I headed to Siglap macs for some breakfast. It was nice. and quite funnn. :)

After that, i came home, went online for awhile and fell asleep on the couch. it's amazing how I managed to fit on the couch with my lappy beside me. I didn't even knock it down or anything. I most probably hardly move when i sleep. Kewl. :P

So, my thighs have grown bigger. I think it's cause i haven't been exercising so like all my muscles turned to fats. But nevermind, i've been doing exercises.. in my room. Hahaha. Like squats and all la. Simple things like that. I've also been minding what i eat. I used to snack every hour or so, but I can't keep doing that! My high metabolism won't last and I should watch what i eat before it becomes a really bad habit.

I've decided that I will only have gassy drinks like once every 2 weeks or something. And I won't have too much chocolate and stuff. hahaha. Sounds quite pathetic but what to do. I'm not the kind who diets and I will most probably not stick to it, but it's worth a shot ^^

Okay, shall go continue with studying History now! Oh wait, EOYs are still going on so all those who are like losing faith or getting tired, don't give up!!!

Like i say in every post, fighting!! <3

It hurts

2011-10-05T22:53:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone.

Today I had my ss and maths paper 1. They were both alright. I guess I am capable of passing them. So yeah. Tomorrow is my literature paper. I told myself that i'd study now, but, kinda carried away with my own thoughts.
I feel extremely lonely.. My own best friend has drifted from me. I understand he has major exams and all, but it doesn't feel like anything anymore. It's as if he and i are mere acquaintances. I don't depend on anyone anymore. I mean i am close to quite a few people, but I just feel like very alone, and I kinda wanna be alone. I keep myself occupied nowadays. I enjoy just hanging around my room going about my own business.

But it frustrates me how on an emotional level, there's nobody there for me either. So yeah.

Okay, sorry for this emonemo post. hahaha.

Goodnight everyone and continue to work hard for you exams alright? Fighting! <3

Delayed

2011-10-04T21:58:00.002+08:00

yes hello everyone! I know this post is extremely delayed. I just havent found the time to update. I'm extremely sorry to whoever reads this.

Soooo, as some of you may know, Saturday was the Miss A showcase. You know how people who love something so much and explain it all in one word like awesome or something? Yeah, i can't. It was just to good! Suzy smiled at me, i was so happy!! and when they were leaving, Mel, Natasha, a girl whose name i forgot, and I danced Good Bye Baby and Suzy was so happy ^^

It was totally worth every single penny and every single second i spent on this! <3 Miss A!

Oh and also, Alpha Entertainment will be having auditions which i can actually go for cause like of Miss A and the membership thingo i got when i bought Cat A tickets. How cool. I'm kinda seriously contemplating this. Don't laugh. :/ Should i sing or dance? Haiyoh. hahah how nonsense. I know i won't get in! but worth a shot right? :) I actually have two shots so yeah! hahaha.

Okay, i need to revise Social Studies now. Tomorrow's the exam. Wish me luck! ^^

And good luck to those who are having major exams too! like Ns, Os or EOYs! Fighting~!

One more day!

2011-09-29T21:52:00.004+08:00

Do you think I could pass off as a Japanese girl? ;) hahahaha. I doubt la. But nvm.

So i gained my first blogger follower. ashleyyy <3 hhahah!

HI SEOW YOU ARE MOST PROB READING THIS.

So today, had my first exam! it was pretty alright. Finished both papers awfully early. quite scary. But yeah, after that went home for a quick shower and all. then went to meet Brendan at Bedok Point for some makan. After feeling extremely bloated from subway and gongcha, we left for City Square Mall.

most probably the furthest mother bitch of a place ever. hahah. Went there to meet Natasha to pass my present to Jia :) When i got there, saw a bit of my paint got scratched of. Was super annoyed but got over it. Wandered around that place for awhile then we went back home. Long ass ride home. But it was worth if Jia got my present! ^^

As you can see, it's 10 and i havent showered. Considering I already showered this afternoon i guess it's not too bad. But i will go and bathe right after this!

I'm super majorly excited for tomorrow okay! but for tonight, shall stick to studying my chinese format.

Goodbye <3

EOYs

2011-09-28T21:25:00.002+08:00

Hello hello!

EOYs are officially beginning tomorrow. :) Doesn't feel like it! i feel so relaxed and all still. hahah but i'm studying so yeah.

Today i went with Nicole Chan to popular first! we went to get those big box-ish files for the exams. so it can fit our pencil case and all :) then we went to daiso! I went there to get cat ears for the showcase on friday. I got pink ones and black ones. The pink on is for Jia and i'm wearing the black one ^^ i also bought her this really adorable feathery pen and i put them in a box along with a letter i just wrote to her! thank God she's Chinese :D

However, tmr is the fan sign and i can't go. but i still have to travel all the way to City Square Mall so i can pass my friend my present for Jia <3

Yeap, and also, i've moved into my new house~! it's gorgeous! love it so muchhhh. Would love to have a house warming thingum after the exams.

okie dokes, shall go now.

good luck for the exams everyone <3

Sixth Sense

2011-09-23T20:41:00.002+08:00

I'm super bored kay don't judge me. And i'm also still in my school u cause i came home and crashed. hahaha. after this i'm gonna go bathe okay! :P

Today was cool. I paid attention in chem and i understood everything! at least there'll be a couple questions i can do right? :P And today i also got my art question paper. Quite hard! I don't know what to do. But i think i'll either do 'Stretched' or 'Pathway'. Not sure yet uh. I'll do research and decide.

And i'm moving house this weekend! finally~ but it's gonna be stressful for me! Exams are just around the corner and i have to spend my weekend packing and unpacking things?! But I think i'm really blessed to have a friend like Erssy to offer to come over and help with the unpacking :) Love her to bits <3333

Okay time for my long awaited shower.

BYE <3

Exhausted

2011-09-21T21:37:00.002+08:00

hello!

blogging via phone again. today i fell asleep on the bus and missed my stop. i decided it easnt worth it to take another bus so i walked back home. took me about 20mins. hahah. it was a long ass walk. i guess thats why i'm so tired now.

oh yeah, i'm damn happy cause i got 7€/10 for my bio ca. it was damn easy la i guess :) and also mark gave me his old iphone to use as an ipod cause my current one doesnt have enough space for my stuff! so yayyy :))))

okay i shall go. i'll try to keep updated!

byebye!

Good Love

2011-09-19T18:29:00.003+08:00

hello :)

I'm like on the way home now. gonna abstain from using the computer so gonna use opportunities like these to blog. :)

Today was an alright day. I expected worse since it's a Monday and all, but it wasnt that bad :) Anna didnt come to school today so Lavina and I met her at the polyclinic after school and then went to the library to study. After that, Lavina left and Anna and I went to popular so i could get some stuff. then we went to Ntuc and i walked her home :)

It was nice talking to Anna. It always is la, but it felt nice cause for once in quite a while i felt like i connected with somebody. mainly because she and I like the same things and have the same priorities i guess!

Other than that, i still feel very tired and burderned. By what? I don't actually know. I think it's just pre exam stress and all. Once exams are over, I can watch all the shows I want and chill all day! shiok or what? :P

kay i should go now. byebye!

study hard everyone€!!!

stay

2011-09-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

hello!

i'm blogging using my phone now. gah, kinda hard and annoying but whatever.

so today was a rather unproductive day. but at the same time it was quite productive la. i managed to download tons of videos for my non-wifi entertainment. hahah. but i also didnt study or do hw. thats why i have to do them after this :/

yknow sometimes i wonder what my life would be like if i were a korean. could you imagine me making it big and being a proffessional singer/dancer? id love to be those. but it's quite impossible really. idk la, since i was young ive been singing and dancing so much. and always dreamt of being a 'star' hahah.

but whatever, im talking nonsense :P but yeah, nowadays ive been rather lonely and i think since things are that way, i am just gonna concentrate on what my needs are. like good grades. I also want to exercise more and lose some fats. ugh. It's also exactly a week till i get to move in to the new place so yeah :) i cant wait. :)

kay, i should most prob go and do my work now.

bye :)

3000

2011-09-17T10:43:00.003+08:00

ignore how absolutely ridiculous i look~!

but i just wanted to say hi, and thank you. cause my blog has reached 3000 views. I know it's not much.. But it really feels good to know people actually read what i post. :))) So cool right my hand thing to make the number 3000. Heeheee. ^^

So anyway it's saturday morning. Typical lazy day for me. but need to study la actually. Exams coming soon and i'm really hoping to be able to maintain being top 10 in class. Even though the odds are low because of the first semester. But nevermind, SA2 is of more weightage.

Oh and also, i'll be moving in next thursday/friday apparently. Cause my mother wants the whole house organised and ready before we move in instead of having to do the organising and al while we are staying there. it'd be too messy.

So yeah! I gotta go nowwwww. I'll blog again soon.

Byebye <3

Tough.

2011-09-15T20:52:00.004+08:00

Hihi.

So today i had training! But Stella wasn't here and some other girl took over. She was really annoying and nobody liked her. Ugh. My whole line isn't going for training tmr, except maybe Hajar. But idk la, see how.

I felt that today's Maths class was really productive. :) I sat in between Ilya and Anna. And Nicole Chan sat beside Anna. I was listening quite attentively. And i even managed to explain to Ilya some stuff. Though i personally feel i didn't do that great a job. hehe. Anna also bought a Suju album from Nicole. The Leeteuk one. No idea how to spell his name actually.

oh and tomorrow Mel and i are going to scape to get our Miss A tickets. ^^V can't waiittttt.

okay, i have to go do my work now, then at 11.20 it's "Let's Go! Dream Team". This ep has Eunhyuk in it so i kinda really wanna watch. :)

Okie dokes, shall go now~~

Byebyebyeeeeeeee.

I don't know.

2011-09-14T00:27:00.001+08:00

Helloooo!

It's kinda late for a school night but i'm bored. hehe. kaykay i'm at my aunty's so means i don't have to wake up too early tmr! woo~~

okay this is a short post byebye <3

End.

2011-09-11T21:09:00.007+08:00

Hello everyone!

Last day of the holidays! I've finished watching Jungle Fish 2. Wonderful ending. Joon is just too cute.

I've to go bathe and then i'm going to start on my last minute homework. hehe. Planning to just do SS, Bio, English and Chinese since those are the subjects i'm having tmr. I don't plan to sleep if it's what it takes for me to complete everything :) After tonight, it's gonna be hardcore mugging and studying and everything. No more messing around! i have to be focused and do well for EOYs.

I'll be the happiest girl alive if i achieve all the target i set for myself. who knows, i may even do better than i had planned to :)

As for my house moving stuff, i think i'm moving this coming week, latest next monday. Hopefully~ I can't wait to be in the comfort of my own home. It's getting kinda frustrating staying here and I don't think I have the patience anymore.

Okay, shall go finish watching a video then shower and do work.

Noight <3

Jungle Fish 2

2011-09-10T15:15:00.004+08:00

Hello everyoneee.

I'm watching Jungle Fish 2 now. Actually i'm just waiting for it to finish loading. that's why i'm blogging uh. So bored.

After i finish watching this episode, i'm going to go to the library to do some work and then head to church at about 7 plus. :) I hope Jerome's going for church! Haven't talked to him in awhile! though he went for cesco's and all, i just haven't TALKED to him like properly so yeah :)

Maybe after this i'll go pack my study bag then i won't waste time later.

Omg, is it me or my eyes seem extra small in those pictures. hmm. maybe my eyes are really as small as people say they are. :( oh well. :P

Haha kay then i should go.

Byebye <3

490

2011-09-09T21:35:00.002+08:00

Hello,

I’ve been at a low recently. I don’t feel that there’s anyone I can depend on, and that nothing goes right anymore. Ever since he left I’ve been feeling this way. I guess now I’m just tired of pretending that I’m over it, or that it’s all right as long as you’re happy. Cause it isn’t. I just want him to be happy with me.

I really don’t feel that there’s anyone there for me. Or that there is anyone I can depend on anymore. Everyone is such a let down, or I’m just such a let down to everyone. From now on, I’m just going to count on myself, depend on myself. Not saying I’ll be a loner! Of course I’ll still have my friends and keep them with me the best I can. I just have to be more independent now.

Besides, I should know myself better than anyone. So yeah.

Okay goodnight everyone. Going to watch an episode or two of Jungle Fish 2 then off to bed.

Cesco's~~~~

2011-09-07T09:51:00.001+08:00

Morning <3
Yesterday was super fun! It was Cesco’s party :) Tons of pictures on facebook. Go see. :) So first we all met at vivo, to head to sentosa together. At sentosa, we went to Palawan beach to swim and all. It was super fun. Played Frisbee, kpop-ed and yeah! Mel came later though cause she had drama. But yeah, she still came so it was all good :)
After sentosa we headed back to vivo for dinner! I guess we all knew there wouldn’t be a place that would be able to fit such a huge group of us, so we decided to go to the outdoor place thingy on the top level and get take-aways. Cel, Regine and I had Carl’s Jr. Oh yeah I made a knew friend, Regine! :) It was so fun talking to her, cause we both liked the same kpop groups, kinda, but not the same people. :P
So yeah, thanks Cesco for inviting me! The weather was wonderful! And thank you to Grace, Keisha, Naimi, Fashikah, Keith, Mel, Terry, Ashraf, Jason, Harris, Bj, Ian, Afi, Cel, Regine, Kim, Sonia, Anthony, Jerome and John for all the fun! Wooo.
Kk on a more boring note, It’s study day today. :( I’ve got tons of holiday homework to complete and tomorrow and Friday I’ve got training so I am aiming to complete at least 2-3 subjects of homework today.

kay bye!!

Chunji

2011-09-05T20:48:00.002+08:00

Omg, i don't think i've liked a kpop idol so much in my life.
Lee Chan Hee or otherwise known as Chunji is the most adorable guy on earth i swear! I know most of ya'll will be thinking i'm crazy and one of those stupid kpop fanatics. But, when i saw him on Music Bank i swear i was spasming over his cuteness.
He's from Teen Top, one of the main vocalists. He has a great voice. And he's 18 if i'm not mistaken :) He looks like a hamster or a mouse. and when he licks his lips i melt inside. Hahahah.
okayokay, sorry if you all hate me for this kpop shizz. But i just have to say something la. he's way too cute.
Okay bye <3

Claire & Les

2011-09-04T21:43:00.002+08:00

Hi everyoneee :)
So yesterday was Claire and Les’ wedding! It was beautiful~ I don’t have many picture though. So yeah. So the wedding started out with my mother, Andre and I helping out with the registration and signing in.
It then proceeded with the ceremony. But there was a surprise! Les had proposed to Claire with a Cello at first, so he decided to surprise her with a proper proposal with a ring just before the actual wedding. It was so sweet :)
Then was photo taking and the actually ceremony! They wrote their own wedding vows that brought everyone to tears! Beautifulll.
The entire wedding, Holly was so busy, running up and down and even helping Andre and I get drinks! She was really a big help and Claire is really blessed to have a sister like her. And I indeed have so much respect for her for doing so much for Claire. :) She even wrote a poem for her speech to Claire. Which was really well written by the way!
Okayokay, this post is really long. Haha sorryyy.
Byebye :D

September

2011-09-02T22:55:00.002+08:00

Heyyy :)
It's the first post of the month which means I have to set my goals and all! I guess since EOYs are coming up, I'll have to concentrate a lot on school. so yeah.
1. B3 for Comb sci, A2 for comb humans, A2 for lit, A1 for eng, B3 for art, B4 for chi and A2 for maths! :/
2. Study at least 2 hours a day starting from after the sep hols!
3. Complete all my sep hols homework! :(
4. Hand in all my homework on time.
5. Save at least 2 bucks a week!
Okay, sounds kinda lame, but that's what i have to do! :/ Wish me luck, and good luck to everyone too. Especially those who have their N's. People like Leroyyyy. I really hope he does well. I know he can do it!
This month was like so so. it passed by extremely quickly and it wasn't as productive as i had intended it to be. But i still have a month to catch up so yeah :)
Okie dokes, i shall go nowwwwww.
Byebye :)

Good Bye Baby!

2011-08-31T20:47:00.002+08:00

Hi hi.
Tomorrow is the day Heechul officially leaves Suju. But it's okay, he'll always be in my heart ^^ loljk. hahahaha.
Anyway, these few days have been alright. I went out with Ashley on Monday! we went to cine to hae some jap food. Super nice, cause it was a steamboat-ish kinda thing. then we went to f21 to check out a dress.
the next day, i went shopping with my mum and Mark! I got a new hoodie and 2 dresses. Mark got like 3 shirts and a pair of pants or something. and a new wallet! oh yeah, i got nail polish tooooo :)
This saturday I have facial at 12 noon then later that day will be Claire's (holly's sister) wedding! woooooo. can't wait. :) will bring my camera and uplooad pics. :)
And also, i think i'll be moving into my new house soon! hopefully wifi and landline will all be ready by the time i get there. would love to enjoy the comfort of my own room once again. And not to mention some privacy. hehehe.
Alright then!
Will try to update sooonnnn!
<3

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2011-08-29T12:18:00.001+08:00

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Happy Birthday Cheyenne~

2011-08-27T15:31:00.000+08:00

Hey!
Yesterday was Cheyenne's Chaletttt. I went in the end, yes. haha. First, met Keith, Joyce and Mel Rae on 12. That was about like 8 plus uh. then, we walked the long ass walk to the chalet. haiya. hahah anyway, arrived there. Saw Cesco, Fi, Ian, Tiffany, Rachel, Claudia and of course Cheyenne. and his other friends! hahaha. there were too many people. :/
Stayed up the whole night, mostly hung out with keith, mel, ashraf and cesco! some times tiffany and rachel, but they left early. :( It was not bad la, pretty slack. but it got more interesting at like 5am :) there was palm reading all. hahah. super cool. mine was kinda boring though :( but whatever. hahahah.
i reached home at about 10am, and i died. hahah. slept till like 1 45 then had lunch and here i ammmm. It's quite cool, considering the fact that i was awake for about 28hours. rebellious much? hahah!
I also don't have much pictures. camera wasn't with me almost the entire time. Actually, there isn't even a single photo of me! hahah! oh well, :P
kkkk, i shall start getting ready for edyd. still kinda stoned but i can do this!!!!

GAH.

2011-08-25T22:52:00.002+08:00

Hello!
Okay so i've been getting better. hopefully i will be able to get better by tomorrow in time for chey's. :) planned to go with mel and all already so yeah!
I'm halfway through a chinese compo which i have to hand in tomorrow, but ugh i hate chinese. I totally flunked my Chinese CA. tsk.
I've been feeling extremely down lately. and extremely alone. It really sucks. I just can't seem to let it all out. It's like numbness more than sadness really. haiya, i don't know what's wrong with me anymore. I've been missing a couple people a lot lately. like a lot. but what's new eh..
Okay, gonna finish up my compo and head to bed i guess..
goodbye and goodnight. :)

Im alive

2011-08-24T09:26:00.002+08:00

Hello.
Omg I'm back from school early cause I'm not feeling well. I'm at my aunty's using her wifi. Hehe. So Internet deprived I swear.
So I was talking to Erssy this morning before assembly. She says I havent been myself lately and I really do agree with. I'm so dead now. I'm MIA, boring, tired all the time and just really dead. Like kinda numb. I hate it but I can't seem to do anything about it. Firstly cause I'm sick, secondly cause I just miss home. I don't seem to be able to feel totally at ease anywhere becausebi really just have no home.
But yeah so anyway, on a lighter note, I'm allowed to go for Miss A showcase!! wooo :) I can't wait!
And also, I've been doing alright for my exams. Except for Chinese, but i passed English, maths, social studies and bio. Whichbis morethan what I need to pass :) finger crossed for history and art though!! :)
Okay, kinda gonna rest or something now.
Byebyeeeee <3

480

2011-08-17T21:07:00.003+08:00

Omg hi everyone!
I'm at my dad's now so now picture. Something went wrong with the internet at my grandma's so i've been really mia. Sorry about that.
Anna and i have kinda been quite into suju recently. To be more specific, HanChul. Or what's left of them. I know this will kinda bore you especially if you hate kpop. but this is the story.
Hankyung is from China and was in suju. Heechul (my fav) and him were/are like best friends to the maximumz. They also stayed in the same dorm. Sometimes i think they're gay buds, but anyway. Hankyung kinda terminated his contract with SMEntertainment and sued them as they mistreated him badly. Hankyung moved back to china and Heechul is left alone ish. So sad.. In their first show after Hankyung left, (SS2 Beijing) Heechul cried like mad while singing one of the songs.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wXkgfRisi_c&feature=related
that video shows all.. Haiyoh so sad. HAHAH.
As you can tell, i have an extremely pathetic and lonely life. So much so that i shower my love, and put in my energy into adoring Hanchul.
Kay bye :P

Die

2011-08-15T00:16:00.002+08:00

eh hiii.
my mum bought me this new face wash, woohoo. made with royal jelly. hahah :P
omg okay, i'm really stressed. it's CA week. And tomorrow is History. I've got tons of chinese work due tmr too. unfortunately, i'm so mentally drained right now to do anything. Even if i wasn't, I don't even understand how to do my chinese work. ):
Alright, had my peptalk from bestie. I can do this. i must just learn my lessons ; not to do things last minute, and to really just be patient and slowly get through this.
Night everyone!! good luck for all your exams. <3

azhpash

2011-08-14T00:16:00.003+08:00

As you can tell. this post is for seowie. she's a bit sad.
and she should know that she has nothing to be upset about. Because she's worth so much than she thinks!! i want to refrain from saying much more because it may totally let everyone know why she's kinda upset.
but omg ashley, you are funny, tall, pretty, and a good h!p$t3r. Don't be sad.
i love youuuuuu <3

Fiction.

2011-08-13T22:42:00.002+08:00

Hello!
I just came home from attachment. today was quite fun. :)
anyways, i've been feeling the same as a few days ago. A bit useless, slightly paranoid, but mostly lonely. But whatever.
Yesterday was photo taking day for the school. :) first in the morning, was class photo taking. it was pretty cool i guess. i hope my face turned out alright! haahaha. and then after school was cca photo taking. all of us got into our jerseys for this :) it was cool. even after the official photo taking, the sec3s and 4s all hung around the foyer to continue cam whoring :) took tons of polaroids! that picture above isn't from yesterday though. that was from earlier this year, at nationals. :)
oh yeah! speaking of nationals. stella mentioned to us that she will be selecting the team very soon. so yeah! good luck to me :D
Okay so maybe later i'll blog again. but for now.
ciaoooo.

Perfection.

2011-08-11T00:28:00.002+08:00

Heyyy.
It's about 12 30. And i'm not that tired. I just feel quite overwhelmed all of a sudden.
I just suddenly feel damn bad about myself. And like hurt. Even though nobody directly hurt my feelings. I just don't know la. I feel extremely angry at myself. I don't understand how i am able to screw up so much. the amount of disappointment i bring to myself doesn't even make sense.
I'm not even trying to be attention seeking or all that shit, i really just, i dont know. i just feel stupid.
Anyway, on a slightly lighter note. Miss A is having a showcase on the 9th of sept. Alesana is coming too. But, i'm not going. Don't feel like it. I just suddenly feel so awkward and judged.
what is wrong with me? hahaha. feel free to tell me ^^
Okayyy, I shall go before i smother ya'll with my self pity. Anyway, as i tweeted a couple days ago. "dwell in self pity and nobdoy will pity you."
Noight ^^

Pre National Day.

2011-08-08T19:24:00.003+08:00

Hellooo ^^
today was pretty cool. First was school! 306 and my class didn't celebrate in school. Instead we went to the Spastic's Children's Association to hold a celebration for them. :) It was really nice and meaningful. :) Unfortunately, no photos of them are allowed to be uploaded.
After which, Ashley and i went to Marina Square to watch Harry Potter! like finallyyyyyy! It was gewdddd. I cried so much when snape died and when remus' body, fred's body was just there all. omg. damn sad.. But after thattt, we went to walked around. like for about 3 hours. hahah so damn tired. :(
Omgggg, we went to try on clothes and i tried on this damn nice maxi dress and i looked like not bad in it!! omg i want it so badly!
hehe kaykay i shall go now.
byebye :D

Finally!!

2011-08-07T00:58:00.004+08:00

Omg i finally went out todaaaaayyyyy :)
First was in the afternoon with Afi and Jason. :) we went to plaza sing intending to watch a movie but it was way too crowded so we walked to cathay :) we watched captain america! it was not too bad! a bit boring though :(
afterwards, i went to church! met jerome at the canteen first then we headed up for our Youth Arise Sesh. It was niceee :) today's theme was on listening. :) then, Alicia, Jerrilyn(i think that's how you spell it), Jerome and I walked out to Siglap. Jerry and Alicia had macs and jerome and i went to LTN.
It was nice talking to Jerome :) it's been awhile since he and i have been close and it's nice being able to talk to him like a brother :)
I reached home close to 12. or maybe even a bit after that. and i've been online ever since.
I have to go now though. gonna take a quick shower then crash.
night <3

Liar liar liar.

2011-08-03T22:22:00.002+08:00

Okay hi, so i didn't post that day. sorry :(
i was too tired and went to sleep right after studying.
So my life has been not bad so far. There are a million things i wish i still had and all, but i'm getting used to change. :)
School has been stressful. I've been staying back everyday for the past week. And it will not change tomorrow and friday. Haiyoh. Oh and as some of you may know, I am using a prepaid sim now. And a spare phone. And i also hadn't talked to Leroy in ages until today. Actually not ages, but to me, 2-3days without talking to your bestfriend is super long. So he called me and we had a $3 phone call. Hahahaha, so funny.
Oh yeah, today a group of us went for this mini excursion thingum to Nanyang Poly to do some cream thing. WE MADE CREAM! ^^V hahah how cool is that? :P We felt like scientist with our lab coats, goggles and gloves. hehe so cool.
So yeap, it's close to 11 and i'm quite tired. gonna pack my bag and then head to bed. :)
noight <3

1st

2011-08-01T19:46:00.002+08:00

Hello everybodyyyyyyy :)
It's the first day of August so i'll take this time to set my goals for this month~ :)
1. Study more more more!! I've already been starting on that :)
2. Complete most of my hw on time! I am constantly handing in my work late.
3. Exercise more regularly! Going for training counts!! :)
4. Eating more healthily. Especially food that is good for my skin cause my complexion sucks :(
5. Update my blog at least every 3-4 days. :))))
Okay, 5 for now. I think I'll try to update again later before i go to bed! Afi my manager planned everything for me ^^
I have to go bathe and sleep till 10, then when i get up, do work and study till 11 30 or maybe later. So yeah.
byebye <3

Roly Poly

2011-07-28T22:20:00.003+08:00

Heyyyy :)
Day 2 of phone confiscation! It's kinda awkward not being able to text certain people. But I'm alright :)
had training today. Too slack. Everyone wasn't serious. it was funny but after awhile I felt quite annoyed cause I really really want our team to improve. I'm not saying we're bad. But I mean, not bad won't get us to at least to semi finals next year! :( I'm not even captain and I'm saying these things. tsk.
I'm currently dead beat. My legs ache and everything, Ugh.
Okay la, i should go. byebye. :)

Goodbye Baby

2011-07-27T20:24:00.003+08:00

Hahaha Kye Lynn and I camwhoring before training :P
HELLO.
Sorry i didn't update earlier! I tried updating the other day, then when i published the post, it didn't appear and everything was gone. I was so angry! I didn't have any patience to re do it. :P
Btw, my phone was confiscated in school today! I am obviously quite upset, but i guess it's alright :) Less distractions!
Anyway, on a lighter note, things seem to be getting better. I'm much happier nowadays. Even though there are moments when I think back about how things used to be, I guess some things just have to change. But who knowsss, maybe in the future things will change again, and everything would be back to normal. :)
I know he's asleep now and doesn't read my blog but,
LEROY NEVILLE KHAN; Good luck for you N level Malay Oral Exam tomorrow! Stay calm! You can do it :) Hwaiting! ^^
Hahaha, I sound like such an ahlian. It's all a joke okay. My Ah Lian-ness should never be taken seriously.
Okok, i should go now!
BYE. <3

BMW2

2011-07-22T21:42:00.002+08:00

Okay see! I'm doing quite a good job as making the effort to come on more often bitchez~
Today was the 2nd day of Bmw and i brought my camera to school so check out my facebook for the pictures alright? :)
Busking was good! I was so so so shy. But thank god i didn't get any of the dance moves wrong. :) Apparently I'm not bad of a dancer! According to Erssy that is. :P My class sang Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson and then Lavina, Nicole Chan, Annabelle and I danced to On The Floor by J lo. 305's busking performance was really good!! really applaud Shameen, Noelle, Nora, Vini and all the other who danced for doing such great great copies of Hoot and Genie by SNSD. :)
My body is aching like mad now. Cause after all that craziness at BMW, I had training :( It was aight! Had a quick dinner with V Toh afterwards~
Kay la, honestly my eyes are really tired also. Gonna wait for all my photos to upload onto facebook, then shall go off.
Byebye :)))

BMW1

2011-07-21T20:20:00.003+08:00

Hiiiiiiiii ^^
So i'm updating again. Trying to go back to updating more often. :) School was quite fun today! It was the first day of BMW.
Watched sec2s and 1s do their busking. BMW quiz, and the talk show by the alumni. :) That was very interesting, i must say! The theme was 'home' and even though it's a very cliche theme, the alumni really said a lot of interesting things in the discussion.
After school was training also. Super annoying but not gonna dwell on that.
Okay, tomorrow is BMW Day 2m, which means the sec3s turn to busk. Which means i'm gonna be dancing. HAHA. Fml. I cant dance for nuts, this is gonna be so embarrassing :( Hope not many people watch :(
I'm exhausted!! Waiting for Romance Town at 9, then maybe get to talk to my bestie <3
K ciaoz. :)

I am so sorry.

2011-07-20T14:38:00.003+08:00

MANUE'S BIRTHDAY.

GEN'S BIRTHDAY.
HI EVERYONE.
I AM EXTREMELY SORRY I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN THE LONGEST TIME.
Sooooooo, not much has happened recently. I've been really like mia i guess.
Only thing was Gen's birthday and Manue's birthday. Gen's was fun, but i left early. Manue's was fun too!! Went swimming and everything. :) Met a couple new people there too. So yeah! People there were Manue, like obviously. Diane, Benedict N, Keisha, Naimi, Kimverlyn, Ian, Terry, Bj, Cesco, Ashraf, Jerome, Alena, her sister who I dont really know :P, And Ashley Neo! And Sarah came with me for awhile but she left damn early.
And school has been HELL. I hate hate hate hate hate it. it's so stressful. I have so much homework due. Haiyoh, I have so much on my mind. It makes concentrating on ANYTHING impossible. I really wish i had someone to go through all this shit with me, i hate being alone. I reallyyyy totally despise it.
Kk, need to go now. Get started on work or something. Hmph. I'll try to update soon kay. Sorry babes.
BYE. <3

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2011-07-08T22:33:00.001+08:00

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Am i the only one hurting tonight?

2011-07-05T22:43:00.002+08:00

HELLO. hahah sorry photo spam.
Today's manue's birthdayyy! Go to my fb if ya'll wanna see the really calm video i made of her! then go to keisha's to see her super hyper one! hahah! :)
So, friday's Gen's party and then saturday is Manues! :) I'm not allowed to stay late for both the parties but at least i'm allowed to go! Haha can't wait for both uh.
Haiyoh, i'm quite sad uh. It's gotten to a point that we aren't able to even look at each other. Or don't even want to. It was so awkward for me when i saw you. I wanted to cover my face, dig a hole and rot in there. But it wouldn't matter cause you wouldn't look either. But have to convince myself that I'm just better off without you! If not i doubt i'd be able to live with the guilt. And how much i miss you. Hahaha, "life is hard" as said by Ashley Seow.
Kk, need to do A LOT of homework!!
BYEYBYE <3

Starry Starry Night

2011-07-04T12:11:00.002+08:00

OMG HI. :)
Yesterday was EMDD~~~ The theme was starry starry night! It was good but really warm cause we were forced to wear jeans. :(
But all in all, i was extremely impressed by most of the items!! The drama club, modern dance and choir was like the best! :) Saw Julienne and Diane dance! They were super graceful! :) And also, Ili and Aashna were acting. Their acting was really good. Made it damn believable! :)
Okay, need to do other stuff now.
BYEEEEEEE.

EMDD.

2011-07-02T23:31:00.001+08:00

Hello everyoneee. :)
Today was EMDD! And in the morning was some chinese excursion thingum. It was alright! Hung out with Joyce, Senjoo and Nicole Chan after at parkway. Cause we needed to have lunch and go to giant! It was really fun! Laughed a lot :)
Went for EMDD with Lavina and Seow :))) Sat with Divya and her family too! And Vic Tan also joined us. Was slightly late to meet Ashley Seow at 7 11 before going to school. I felt really bad though i was rushing like mad. Hope she's not too mad at me still.
I took quite a few pictures. Not many actually, but yeah. :) They'll be up on facebook by Tuesday! Promise!
Tomorrow evening I have tuition as usual and after that i'm going over to Holly's for dinnner! CAN'T WAIT!
Alright, shall end here. Maybe I'll blog somemore later. :)
BYEBYE. :)